I feel good.

This blog post today is just a shout out to a couple people who helped me with some things. To David and Michael, I had some great conversations with you and I hope one day I can look back on this and realize today was the day when things changed and I can thank you all over again. It’s nice after hating the word passion because I never completely understood it that I’m beginning to feel it here. Or maybe I have felt it and I’m finally realizing this is what I’ve felt. I hoped this journey would make me grow and it may not have happened in a single instance, but I feel I’m starting to see the seeds of new thoughts and ideas and perspectives develop inside of me. I’m not going to go into detail here because I’m just brainstorming of the future but it’s at least nice to think of something less  vague than “I want to adventure.” I am adventuring currently and I’m reaping the results of it. I’m feeling good. I’m feeling motivated. I’m feeling passionate. It’s a good feeling as I literally mentioned ten or so words ago. If anyone cares to ask what I’m even thinking about in this blog post, then feel free. I’ll probably clam up and say it was nothing which is why I’m writing this here. Because I want to remember that I felt this way and I want to remember that it’s okay to be scared as long as you don’t quit because of it. Oh man, reading this I realize it sounds extremely vague and platitudes-esque and that’s not what I’m going for. I have thoughts, I have actually ideas, it’s just some things I don’t want to share with the world when they might come to nothing. Oh cripes, I’ll probably regret this post. I guess in a week or so, I’m gonna have to write an apology for this one and try to be a little more specific. I would delete this all and write it over but I already did that once. Now I’m almost 500 words in! I can’t do that again. Whatever, it’s the internet. If I don’t post my mistakes then that’s no fun. No one wants to see Mr. Perfect on here. Geez. This post really veered off the rails here. Thank you Michael and David for giving some guidance and support today. Thank you for whoever is reading this and still reading this as I keep rambling on. And thank you for people who will care enough to maybe ask me to be a little more specific because even I feel bad how vague this is. Should have kept it short and sweet and just thanked them! Ugh. So it goes?


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